Just a thought

I’m thinking of giving up all those things that people have got addicted to. Dont ask me why, even I dont know. Test of willpower? No idea, could be. Eccentricity? Possible. So the first thing that I need to do is make a list of all that. Top of my mind is my cellphone, Orkut, coffee, etc. Are these the only things on my mind? Well, in that case, I need to be more observant so that I place more things in my “WANNA-GIVE-UP” list. Suggestions and opinions invited.

BTW, saved a small (read very small) kitten from a barbed fenced. Poor little thing has got bruises (just lovvvee the way Mustaine signs off “Love & Bruises”) all over its body. Was reminded of the small baby, Mrityunjay (God bless Dr. Sanjay Oak), that was stabbed 26 times and left in a dust bin. I’ve named the kitten Lola Kitty… She “meow”ed at me when I called her that, so I have a feeling that she likes her name!

I’m the fool

Have been thinking about this for quiet sometime now. If someone is making you uncomfortable, you would definitely take steps to straighten up things. But how would you do it? Would you talk straight to that person ( I mean call a spade a spade) or would you, for the sake of BEING POLITE N UNDERSTANDING try to ignore the shit but do so at the cost of your self respect. Would you just put up with it and suffer for it in silence? Does that mean being taken for granted?

You talk, but your point is sidelined coz its considered plain nonsense. What would you do then? Coz you know irrespective of whether you open your mouth or not, it would be made to look like its all your fault. You’re the fool. Mistakes lie with you. & if people manage to confuse you, when you are not convinced, would that touch your self-confidence? If yes, what’s to be done? If no, how numb can you get?

Should you give yourself some time to let the dust settle? Or just go with the flow without knowing where you are heading? When someone, in whom you can confide, asks you whats wrong, should you spill the beans or should you disguise the naked truth with an ever popular “Wrong? Nothing’s wrong!”

In”DEPENDENCE” DAY…

Yeah I know… My country celebrated 60 years of Indeoendence yest. YAWNNN…… Finally I managed to observe that the T.V that we have is a Samsung one n turned it on yesterday to catch up on some news n music. The usual Indep day stuff everywhere. Like debates abt where India is going, flag hoisting, national anthems n patriotic songs everywhere. Nice.

But from today till 26th Jan 2008, the usual filth will continue. MLAs n MPs rehersing their KUNG FU n Karate in the Houses, babies n foetuses getting stabbed a score of times before being left in some dust bins, bhoot obsessed TV channels showing creepy docus, all the rona dhona tv serials, mag offices facing the wrath of ppl coz of whatever reasons, etc…..

BTW, Happy Independence Day to everyone.

Chanakya Neeti # 1

Long back I’d got a mail from a colleague abt Chanakya Neeti….. It had many many points but for some strange reason the first point got etched in my memory.. It said “Never be very honest, straight trees are cut first.” Fucking true, coz I got slapped mighty hard today for being honest. Ppl accept u with open arms if u r loud n deceitful, but speak ur mind n get whacked like anything. Cant believe that ppl can be so fucking spineless! Fucking cowards…… Bastards!

Im not gonna apologise for venting out my feelings. Be that a simple “I love u” to my family n friends or “thank u” to a complete stranger. But I dint know that I’m not supposed to say these things. Like Edward Murrow says “Most truths are so naked that people feel sorry for them and cover them up, at least a little bit”.  I never thought it cud get so bloody fucked up, but guess it had to end like this…. I know u dont give a fuck, but u r gonna pay for it someday very badly. Till then, PLEASE FUCK OUTTA MY FACE. 

Achhhhhoooooo…….

Me down with real badddd cold! My nose resembles a war zone, its like blood red but all chocked up. Its in times like these that I wanna be left alone. But no!! Ppl cant handle my solitude. They want me to talk non-stop like a radio jockey… WTF?? Leave me n my bloody nose alone!!!!!

Hehehe….. Met an interesting woman today!! She belongs to the cult where people like to be in a constant state of crisis, ppl who feel empty if they are not in the middle of some fuck-up, ppl who love to be unhappy…

I have a problem. Everything is either black or white to me. I mean I’m finding my views becoming more n more polarised these days. If I love something or someone I love that damn thing till it starts hurting me, leaving me with some super bruises, all over. If I hate something, I hate it to the extent that it follows me everywhere n I’m forced to accept it. Trying very hard to find that middle ground (or whatever), to be like the water drops on Lotus leaves. Some people never learn n I’m one among them.

Axis Bank Ltd….

My ex-employer UTI Bank Ltd is now Axis Bank Ltd, with a cool logo… reminds me of Mitsubishi logo, though. I’m thinking abt the cost involved in changing the name n the logo in all 575 branches n 2400 ATMs across the country!! Jesus, thats a lotta money!!!! God bless Dr. Nayak…

I never thought I’d get into banking, but was surprised when I accepted the offer letter. I was shocked beyond belief when I started loving being a banker! But gotta admit that whatever I’m now in my current organization, is only because of what Axis gave me… Met some very interesting people, made good friends…

Wish Axis Bank Ltd many many more years of success!!!

Dya know what I mean?

Was listening to some music last nite on my PC n I saw the Oasis cd on my table. Just thought of checking some videos on Google & I clicked on Oasis Unplugged. Liam just walking out of the gig in the last minute. I was like “Liam, u son of a bitch!!! Dont do this….” But Noel takes it from there, walks coolly into the stage, picks up the guitar n starts singing!!! N I dint know what to say… There’s more…. One of the camera guy spots him (Liam) sitting with the audience with a beer bottle in his hand n smiling slyly at Noel!!! What was he thinking man?

After watching a couple of videos as I was preparing to hit the sack, one thought kept my head busy. What if I had been on Noel’s place? Imagine, the lead singer of ur band backs out at the last moment, would u have the balls to do what Noel did?????