Sitting back in my balcony with a cuppa coffee I was just thinking on how my life was in 2009. Bad, that’s the only word I could come up with to sum it all. Big deal! Life does screw everyone, doesn’t it? At the end of the day what matters is I’m still alive and kicking.
Anyways, let me just throw out the words that have gathered at the end of my fingers.
Jan 2009: By far, the worst month in 2009. Had just come out of a crazy misunderstanding with someone in December 2008 after which I had to face shit again. I take the blame since I didn’t have the guts to say what was required to be said, just coz I thought he was a friend and I couldn’t hurt a friend, could I? Anyways, what happened was expected but theek hai, lesson learnt : SO WHAT IF HE/SHE IS YOUR FRIEND. DO WHAT’S REQUIRED AND SAY WHAT NEEDS TO BE SAID.
Feb 2009: The best month of 2009! Got super gifts for Valentines Day and then the Goa trip happened! Something that every girl would want is a hand-in-hand walk alongside a beach with her loved one. I got one this time and the fact that it happened in Goa was an icing on the cake! Being fans of ‘walking’ we literally overdid it. LOL. Walked straight from Candolim beach to Calangute beach till Souza Lobo arrived. Thats a good 6 and a half KMs (please correct me if I’m wrong).
March 2009: Ah! Again gifts and more gifts (for my birthday). I’ve already blogged about it, so won’t write much. All I’d say is I’ve a wonderful family and super cool friends. May God bless them.
April 2009: Ok. Nothing much happened except that the office crap started from this month. Phew!
May 2009: My place is supposedly up for redevelopment. The builder has been promising us all the nice pictures (that he got for the presentation to nab the redev deal) since the last 5 years now, but it was only during May 2009 that we thought “yes, finally its happening”. The fact that we are still in the same dilapidated building with roofs falling off and leaking and peeling off should answer the question “what’s happening on the redev front?” Honestly, my family is gearing up for Monsoon and Pee water 2010 here. The builders’ lobby I tell you….!
June 2009: My preggs co-sister and niece flew down from Malaysia and that was the main highlight of this month. The announcement of the arrival of yet another grandchild, opened a new set of pressure list for me. :(. Oh how could I forget!! My office shifted from being on the road to being built atop a mountain! Cost cutting they say, but I ask “Heard of something called BCP?” Anyways, management decides and we follow.
July 2009: Leaky roof tops. I’m sad we have not been able to afford a house yet. We dont really deserve what we go through during monsoons. Its sad. In fact this is all I can think of for this month!
August 2009: While the office mess continued, here I was dealing with attitudes being thrown at me, being insulted in front of everyone and all. Made some new friends at work and their words did soothe me. So thanks to all of them.
September 2009: After Jan 2009, this was the second worst! Mess at work intensified and my integrity was questioned. This had me seethe in anger and in a fit I just rammed a resignation letter and threw at my boss’ face. Called up Zack (I remember) and howled my ass out. I cried for more than 4 hours that day. It took me weeks to come out of this. No amount of music or books helped. Even as I type this, a tear escapes my eyes.
October 2009: Nothing much happened this month. It was Diwali time and I was still depressed. That’s when I decided to put my heart n soul in decorating my house. Which I did and had an amazing time!
November 2009: Pretty uneventful for me. But really off putting for a good friend (now). So time went by in trying to heal him.
December 2009: Babe of the team quits. I miss her (she was my partner in crime in many activities that I’d never pen down here or anywhere else!!). So does every male in the team ;). Some can’t stop talking about her and some delve deep into depression. Gossip mills work overtime keeping one and all very busy and give enough fodder for bitchiness. However, by this month, I learnt the most important lesson of life “Letting go”. Started feeling lighter and the number of smiles increased as well.
All in all a mixed bag, it was.