What do you mean by this term?
Is it someone whose tuning and wavelength in completely in tandem with yours? Someone who knows what exactly is going on in your head in a given situation. Someone who knows how exactly you are going to react to any situation. Someone who has always been there for you no matter what the situation has been. Someone who knows that you need coffee NOW and while coming to meet you, gets you a cup or calls you to Barista/CCD just to meet up with you. Someone with whom you are YOU and 100% at that. Someone with whom you find that instant ‘click’. Someone who completes your sentences for you. Someone who can make you laugh when you are shipwrecked. Someone who you think of immediately for sharing a dirty SMS or major gossip. Someone who calls you up, when you think of calling (him/her) up . Someone who calls you up and empties his/her world of frustration on you and ends up feeling better. Someone who shares his/her minutest of details of how the day went by and you are still interested in knowing some more at the end of the 30 minute long conversation. Someone who makes sure that you are well taken care of no matter whichever part of the world you are in. Someone who’d call you up knowing fully that you are snowed under work, just to say “hi bewakoof” and giggles away to glory when you start abusing him/her. Someone whose likes and dislikes about anything and everything matches with that of yours.
Is he/she your soulmate then??
PS: I’m gonna come back to update this post. Since I’m observing a lot more than what I’ve written above. 🙂
Some news from my end, FINALLY! The building deal has almost got through. We have received the cheques and are supposed to vacate by the end of this month. Considering the frequency of the posts here, I guess my next post would be from our newly rented apartment. 🙂 INSHALLAH!
The actual turmoil has really started now. Four people and 4 different kinds of opinions. Consensus?? Naw! We have stubbornness issues you see.. The group of 4 has been divided into a team of 2. Me n Ram and Ma and Pa. Me n Ram do the running around Bombay searching for a decent nest to park our butts temporarily for around 18-22 months, while Ma and Pa will decide on the budget and what needs to be shifted and what needs to be disposed off. So the Hunt has begun.
We are not very hung-up on where we want a house, but we are very adamant on how the big the flat should be. So its ok if we are getting a bungalow in Kasara but it better be a bungalow. Traveling?? Oh well.. And I’m like WHATEVER!
So weekends are getting spent hunting for a decent flat in the suburbs. I’m using the word hunting again and again since, it looks so. One flat in a minute is seen and scrutinized by atleast half a dozen family. I’m not exaggerating and God knows that. Its a freaking sellers market.
And who said flat are getting sold at “rate/sq. ft”? Yesterday, one family bought a 1 BHK flat for 50 lacs! I dont have any clue of where the actual location is, what the area is.. All that I know is that the location in somewhere in Kandivli. And the deal happened right in front of my eyes, with Ram in tow. Our jaws just dropped and its still there at the broker’s office. So there goes our dream of buying a nice 1BHK in Kandivli. Have always loved that place. Cant afford a bloody 50 lac house people. And when some silent dreams break, they dont make noise but they just tear your heart and hopes apart. Well…
Anyways, I dont want to talk much about all this here, since there’s no point removing my frustration here. Im just praying that something comes up and we all leave this place with our sanity intact. Over and out!
PS: The hunt in this sun and heat is only making everything all the more funnier.
It feels like its been eons since I came here! Blame it on the ever popular “Scarcity of time”. Nah, seriously, I’m just not able to squeeze off time to come here and do my stuff. Anyways, now that I’m here, I did read the new posts from all the blogrolled links and I feel so nice. Dont know why, but yes, I’m feeling good. This feeling could also be attributed to the fact that I just woke up from an hour of afternoon siesta. 😛
For starters, let me talk about whats happening in my personal life: No change. Status quo being maintained. I find it boring since I, by nature, am a very adventurous person. I need too many things to keep me going. But off-late have come to terms with “No news is good news” thing. Atleast there are no nasty surprises. But what is life without these is what my head asks me (see I told you I need my life to be eventful, even if its as lame as me ranting about spilling a mug full of coffee all-over my more than white dupatta!) Well had been to the amazing Goa a couple of weeks back and came back all rejuvenated. Did some super crazy things, and had a whale of a time. Now back to the rut, filth, grime and the noise-dust pollution.
Work life? Ahem… Got my appraisal done but thats about it. I’m just not motivated anymore. Its ok. I got o work, I do my work and then I get out. If at all I get time to look around, I find people wasting their time and that irritates me. Not coz I dont get to do all those, but coz, they get away with it easily since the “extra” work gets delegated to me in a jiffy! There are people who slaughter time by chatting on Gtalk, IP messengers, land-line phones, cellphones, etc. From where on earth do these people get so many calls? Are these blokes so important in other people’s lives? Or are the guys calling these guys just as wasted? No clue!!!
Got selected in the ‘Editor Group’ for the organization magazine, so this is something that has really kept me excited off-late. Getting to bunk work officially without having to take leave (and there by ensuring a good reserve of leaves), learning about whats happening in other areas of work, meeting new people n all is making me happy, I must admit.
Another day of holiday (Gudi Padwa) comes to an end. That reminds me that professionally and personally I’m in the most important month of the year. March. Professionally insanely important since its the year end and being a banker, sometimes I’ve to be reminded by a colleague to have a bathroom break (I’m serious, this guy reminds me, else, we are totally snowed under work and more work). Personally its super special since I grow a year younger in this very same month. :).. heck, I’m gonna be 28 in a few days! Wowwiee! 8) Lets see how this month treats me.
Sitting back in my balcony with a cuppa coffee I was just thinking on how my life was in 2009. Bad, that’s the only word I could come up with to sum it all. Big deal! Life does screw everyone, doesn’t it? At the end of the day what matters is I’m still alive and kicking. 🙂
Anyways, let me just throw out the words that have gathered at the end of my fingers.
Jan 2009: By far, the worst month in 2009. Had just come out of a crazy misunderstanding with someone in December 2008 after which I had to face shit again. I take the blame since I didn’t have the guts to say what was required to be said, just coz I thought he was a friend and I couldn’t hurt a friend, could I? Anyways, what happened was expected but theek hai, lesson learnt : SO WHAT IF HE/SHE IS YOUR FRIEND. DO WHAT’S REQUIRED AND SAY WHAT NEEDS TO BE SAID.
Feb 2009: The best month of 2009! Got super gifts for Valentines Day and then the Goa trip happened! Something that every girl would want is a hand-in-hand walk alongside a beach with her loved one. I got one this time and the fact that it happened in Goa was an icing on the cake! Being fans of ‘walking’ we literally overdid it. LOL. Walked straight from Candolim beach to Calangute beach till Souza Lobo arrived. Thats a good 6 and a half KMs (please correct me if I’m wrong).
March 2009: Ah! Again gifts and more gifts (for my birthday). I’ve already blogged about it, so won’t write much. All I’d say is I’ve a wonderful family and super cool friends. May God bless them.
April 2009: Ok. Nothing much happened except that the office crap started from this month. Phew!
May 2009: My place is supposedly up for redevelopment. The builder has been promising us all the nice pictures (that he got for the presentation to nab the redev deal) since the last 5 years now, but it was only during May 2009 that we thought “yes, finally its happening”. The fact that we are still in the same dilapidated building with roofs falling off and leaking and peeling off should answer the question “what’s happening on the redev front?” Honestly, my family is gearing up for Monsoon and Pee water 2010 here. The builders’ lobby I tell you….!
June 2009: My preggs co-sister and niece flew down from Malaysia and that was the main highlight of this month. The announcement of the arrival of yet another grandchild, opened a new set of pressure list for me. :(. Oh how could I forget!! My office shifted from being on the road to being built atop a mountain! Cost cutting they say, but I ask “Heard of something called BCP?” Anyways, management decides and we follow.
July 2009: Leaky roof tops. I’m sad we have not been able to afford a house yet. We dont really deserve what we go through during monsoons. Its sad. In fact this is all I can think of for this month!
August 2009: While the office mess continued, here I was dealing with attitudes being thrown at me, being insulted in front of everyone and all. Made some new friends at work and their words did soothe me. So thanks to all of them.
September 2009: After Jan 2009, this was the second worst! Mess at work intensified and my integrity was questioned. This had me seethe in anger and in a fit I just rammed a resignation letter and threw at my boss’ face. Called up Zack (I remember) and howled my ass out. I cried for more than 4 hours that day. It took me weeks to come out of this. No amount of music or books helped. Even as I type this, a tear escapes my eyes.
October 2009: Nothing much happened this month. It was Diwali time and I was still depressed. That’s when I decided to put my heart n soul in decorating my house. Which I did and had an amazing time!
November 2009: Pretty uneventful for me. But really off putting for a good friend (now). So time went by in trying to heal him.
December 2009: Babe of the team quits. I miss her (she was my partner in crime in many activities that I’d never pen down here or anywhere else!!). So does every male in the team ;). Some can’t stop talking about her and some delve deep into depression. Gossip mills work overtime keeping one and all very busy and give enough fodder for bitchiness. However, by this month, I learnt the most important lesson of life “Letting go”. Started feeling lighter and the number of smiles increased as well.
Sorry folks, yet another youtube video being uploaded. But had to do this. Had to have this here. Checkout… AWESOMENESS!!!!
This is btw for all those self involved, egotistic, venomous, backstabbing people who consider themselves God sent….some people need a serious reality check..
Its been quite sometime that I’ve actually written something (have been so freaking lazy that just used to upload videos from utube :P). Its not that I didn’t have anything to write. Many things, in fact head was always crowded. But the inclination to sit and blurt it out was simply missing. I used to drag myself to the computer to check mails. And that happened only coz I’m searching for jobs, else I was like :%(*#_)#$_$#_$#!@&*# (don’t ask what it is but its definitely not some swearing).
Anyways, life’s been the same. But if I had to compare it with what it was like in Jan 2009, I’d say this Jan is undeniably beautiful. Relationships were in a mess in 2008-2009. Won’t get into the details, but really grateful to God that better sense prevailed everywhere. :). Other than this, things are the same. The struggle to find a home and a job continues.
What I’ve noticed is all the mess that has come my way has made me a better person. I listen more and talk less (though my darling hubby would disagree to that up front! :P). Nonsense has stopped bothering me. The fuse that’d burst anytime, takes time now. I’m not suggesting that I’ve become cold or insensitive, but more tolerant which is good news! I’ve become more hopeful, less aggressive and impulsive. All in all, 2008-09 has helped me become a good person. And it has started showing everywhere. I smile more. 🙂 Like the facebook update that I’d put the other day: Idiocy doesn’t bother me anymore. May be the smiles that they’ve started bringing is a clear indication that I’ve grown up.
Moving to other things, I badly need a break. More than 350 days of work, work and more work is taking a toll. Searching for some places for a vacation, but the planning is taking longer than usual. May be Garry can help me here.
My cellphone is dying. Anyday can be the D Day now. Not its fault. For the number of times I’ve dropped it, its surprising its still alive. So the search for another cellphone starts now. My heart says Sony Ericsson, but mind is asking me to settle down for something very basic. I’m not really inclined towards spending a bomb here.
Stopping here for now. I can’t bear to read what I’ve written, but I’m positive it’d be gibberish, as always! Anyways… Take care people. Cheerios till I come back with something (hopefully) interesting!
And why not? If its someone like Al Pacino, a volcano of talent, the dialogues better be good. & of all the scenes that have made an impact on me, these are by far the best and my most favourite. The expression, the tone, and the ‘everything’ is simply etched in my memory.
One of the best gifts to the world of motion pictures -> AL PACINO! My all time fav!!!!
I’ve spoken a lot about metal, Mark Knopfler, Megadeth, RHCP, Pink Floyd, Maiden, Scorpions, etc. that have been my obsession since the last 7-8 years. Though as a kid, I was fed with a liberal dose of Carnatic music and Tamil movie songs. Needless to say Ilayaraja and MSV ruled. So I feel its not fair that I haven’t written a single post about my most favourite Tamil movie songs. The list is endless, but I’ll try to keep it short n sweet. Here it goes.
1. Ninnukori Varnam: This is from the movie Agni Natchatram (Mani Ratnam) and music by the Maestro (Ilayaraja). There’s something about this song that just makes me sway! Cuteness personified and Amala is the most beautiful actress ever according to me!!! Flowing hair, flawless complexion and amazing grace. How could I forget K S Chitra, (playback singer) who’s silky voice is something that the whole of my family is mad about.
2. Sundari neeyum: Now this is from a cult movie “Micheal Madan Kamarajan”. You say this movie’s name and I’ll be in splits. Every dialogue that Kamal Hasan mouths in this flick, I just laugh! Yet nother favourite actress Urvasi. Versatile and so good in the craft that it feels she was born for this field. I’m not talking about Kamal. Man, the man can act, dance, sing and romance! Which joker from the current scenario can boast of these many talents eh? BTW, Ilayaraja again!!!
3. Ilaya Nila: This is the original Neele Neele Ambar Par. The best part about this Tamil version is the music (obviously) and the singer S P Balasubramaniam, popularly known as SPB. My love for guitars and guitarists started here. Forgive this actor trying to hold a guitar. Just enjoy the song…
4. Kuzhal Oodum Kannan: Another cute song song from the cutie pie K S Chitra. One helluva singer! Music again the Maestro.
5. Mannil Indha Kadal: The original breatheless song by the phenomenon called SPB. Good movie as well. Very matured performances by SPB and R Radhika. My dad’s fav song.
6. Kanne Kalaimane: Another king called Yesudas. One of the most brilliant movies ever. I’m not talking much. Just enjoy this dreamy, sleepy song.
7. Amma Endrazhaikkatha: Yesudas with Ilayaraja gain. Phew. This is a Rajnikanth movie. Though I’m not a big fan of the Superstar, I’ve come to terms with the fact that this man just fills the screen. Terrific screen presence. About the song, one’d enjoy the song more if he/she knows Tamil properly. This is for all the mommies in the world.
8. Yedhedho: Ilayaraja + Vairamuthu (lyricist) + K S Chitra + Kamal Hasan + K Balachander= (Heaven + Paradise) * 1000! The video is bad but who wants to see the video when the music is so mesmerizing?
9. Mandram Vantha: This super song is from the movie Mouna Ragam that I’ve seen more than a zillion times and I’ve still not got enough of it. It talks about relationships, marriages in particular. Good story, super performances and killer music. Ofcourse you can expect magic when Mani Ratnam and Ilayaraja come together and this one wont disappoint anyone. BTW, this is our very own Cheeni Kam title track music! Obviously the Tamil version came way back in the 1980s.
The song lyrics make my eyes moist every time I listen to it:
[to live so unattached like water over lotus leaf ,
to live like friends, why should we marry?
to live without any relation/responsibility
life is not stage play to go separate ways after a scene, its not a river to take its directions as per its whims and fancies, like the moon in the sky, why can’t u live with me for ever and ever??]
10. Kadhal Sadugudu: Would be lying if I said, I grew up listening to this song. Rather, I refused to grow up after falling in love with my Maddy. A very recent song from the movie Alaipayuthey with music by A R Rahman. Though I can list innumerable songs by Rahman, this one is really close to my heart for many many reasons. One of them being, my Maddy looking awesomely cute!!!
The 1993 bomb blasts in Bombay, the 1992 communal riots, the 6th December 1992 attack on the Babri Masjid in Ayodhya. One man L K Advani. One another man Tiger Memon.
Demolition of Babri Masjid happened and Hindus allover India, especially Mumbai were massacred. The Thackerys who are known for not taking things striding down, started their attacks on Muslims. Few knew what was in store. Innocent lives from both communities, businesses worth crores lost and thousands of lives misplaced. All for some stupid fundamentalism.
I’m currently reading this book called BLACK FRIDAY by Hussien Zaidi and I’ve found this book to be totally unputdownable. Pages after pages of why Babri Masjid demolition happened, why innocent people were killed, how people were seething in anger, how revenge was planned, how it was funded, how the targets were chosen, how people were recruited, how training happened, how it was executed and how the investigations were conducted is all that this book is about. Who was Dawood? Tiger? You wanna know, read this book. Its about what happens when intense anger is channelized in all the wrong directions. Its mind numbing to realize that a smuggler can actually gather enough people to bomb a city that’s so close to him.The book mentions that Dawood was badly stressed after his favourite city was so badly bombed. Ironic considering the claim in the book that it was he who gave a go ahead to Tiger!
Rakesh Maria. Now this man, DCP Traffic erstwhile, was the one who provided a major break through in the investigations. Single minded dedication is what this cop is all about! What was found out after the investigations, was even more shocking. The planning of the bomb blasts had started nearly 2-3 months in advance with most of the people who planted the bombs were first timers who hadn’t even held a gun in hand!. This was planned, entirely by one Ibrahim Mushtaq Abdul Razak Memon (Tiger Memon. the book even goes on to explain how Memon got the name Tiger! Freaking details!!!!).
There are more names that come to my mind, but if I start, I’m afraid I might end up doing a very bad review of a brilliant book.
I don’t wish to write too much about my thoughts here. Lets just say that this book is so precision personified that it can leave you rattled. I really dont wanna mention the gut wrenching details of how an arm was severed or how bodies were charred beyond recognition that this book goes on to interpret. Dizzying.
To all the Police Personnel, khabris, Zanjeer (a golden Labrador that sniffed out all the explosives), I salute thee! To the people who lost their lives, my heart goes out to them and their families. To the spirit of Mumbai – HATS OFF! I rest my case.
PS: Out of all the books that I’ve read, this one made me cry. Yes I did.
I’m sure all of us have THAT one person in our lives who teaches us what it feels like to be in love. Singers, authors, musicians, dancers, actors, actresses, teacher, neighbour’s dog walker, it could be anyone.
There is an actor who portrayed the role of Shekhar Sinha in the very popular Saaya (Sony, every Tue 8.30 PM). He was in love with Sudha, his college buddy played by Mansi Joshi Roy. The show revolved around 3 friends, their lives in college and lives after college. Throughout college life, Shekhar’s role is all about wooing Sudha, who thinks of him “just as a friend”. (Useless female). Little did Shekhar know that somewhere in the Thane suburbs, was a girl who was falling for him. She used to fight with her college pals saying Shekhar belonged to her. And that she was glad since Sudha wasnt responding well to his proposal. As the episodes progressed, her love for him grew. So much that she really felt she’d meet the man of her dreams (Shekhar) some day. The serial ended with Shekhar ending up with Kamya (Achint Kaur). This broke the dreamy girl’s heart into a zillion pieces and like all other females she started hating Achint Kaur. The girl is none other than Sam (yours truly) and Shekhar Sinha, R Madhavan. Yes, to this day I hate that bitch Achint Kaur.
Maddy did appear in other serials like Sea Hawks, Banegi Apni Baat, Ghar Jamai. These didn’t do all that well. Moving from TV serials to motion pictures, Maddys’ first (hit) movie was Alaipayuthey. He was actually approached by Mani Ratnam for his movie Iruvar (Ash’s first movie), but was rejected on the grounds that he looked too young to play a serious role. His eyes looked young, Mani said in one of his interviews.
Now coming back to Alaipayuthey. A little background before that. For the kind of chatterbox that I am, the film review from me starts immediately after I’m out of the theatre. But this time everything was different. I was very quiet. I’d thought I couldn’t love him more after Saaya, only to realize I was so wrong. I was hopelessly and insanely in love with him. The way Kartik proposes to Shakti was the scene that blew my mind. It was simple, yet cute. Had to be considering it was Maddy who was playing Kartik. The way he took care of Shakti, the way they fought, the way they made up after every fight, had a huge impact on me. I wanted my man to be JUST LIKE HIM. Sensitive, loving, caring and above all understanding.
The movie was a cult hit and there was no stopping me. I used to collect Maddy’s pics from all sides of the print world. What’s more, I pestered my mom to teach me Tamil so that I could read his interviews in Tamil magazines. I used most of my pocket money in buying his posters or getting them framed. This had my dadda see red since, like all Tam Brahm daddas, he didn’t want his daughter to waste her time behind some loser actor (that’s what he thinks about him, to this day). Instead, dadda wanted his daughty to solve maths!! Yet another Maddy thingie that I did was to get a yellow churidaar stitched from my local tailor, though I hated the colour (Kartik proposed to Shakti while she was aboard a local train and Shakti was in a bright yellow churidaar).
It’s been almost 10 years since Alaiypayuthey released. My Thane home still has all of the Maddy posters, cut outs and pics neatly pasted in big drawing books. No one’s allowed access to that shelf and the key to that place is with me in my bag. Such is my love for that man. I like him not just for his looks but also for the way he conducts himself in front of media. Polished and classy, unlike all the other loser maniacs who are Rakhi Sawant’s relatives (bloody attention seeking and loud). May be his public speaking course (where he met his wife, she was his student there) helped him in saying just what was required.
Kannathhil Muttham Ittal, Dum Dum Dum, Nala Damayanti, Anbe Sivam (yet another fav), Run, Aayutha Ezhuthu (Yuva in Hindi), Rang De Basanti, Guru have been his hits and needless to say I’ve seen all of these more than 10-12 times. A loving hubby, doting father to Vedant and a complete family man. What can I say? Love you Maddy! Or like Van Halen said “Cant Stop Loving You!” Freddie (Queen) was right. Love is crazy and Crazy li’l thing called love!
Eruptions in my deranged head 